When I saw your mother tonight, I couldn't help but remember being drunk on sushi in her backseat, falling asleep. I was sitting next to your future girlfriend and had spent the prior 4 weeks watching you fall into lust. I had enjoyed your tea dates, but wanted none of them. In retrospect, I shouldn't have had that third round of caterpillar rolls- but I assumed your family could afford them. I assumed a lot at the time. And if I knew then, what I know now, I'd still know nothing at all.


wait a second.

I work 50 hours a week. When I'm not working, I really enjoying spending time in my bed. Of late, it's been rather empty. If I'm not mistaken, what you're telling me is that on my time off I'm supposed to get up and "get out there" to "find someone."


I think I will continue on my cat lady path of oatmeal in bed at 8 PM and dreams of food I'll never cook during naps I take at 6:30 in the afternoon. It's not that I don't have time for romance. I don't have the energy.


oh the abuse.

and i miss the bastard.


bear City

i wear red lipstick around the house. just for shits and giggles, as my sister would say. sometimes it's to motivate me to get out of my room. sometimes, it's to make me feel better about staying in. most of the time it's about feeling like a lady, when i don't.

I was supposed to go to a wedding reception/party occasion thing tonight, but no matter the amount of red lipstick i applied, I couldn't find myself filled with the desire to "dress up." On my days off, i am most comfortable in jeans, a low-cut t-shirt, a hoody, my leather jacket and boots. END OF STORY. I've conditioned myself to think that "bad-ass" is "sexy" and i don't like to vary. Granted I love me a summer dress or 7, at the end of the day I'm cut-offs, not curtsies.

Instead of the burlesque-wedding-extravaganza, i landed myself on a couch (in my cut-offs and boots) with 2 and 1/2 gays and Meg Ryan all night. Long story short, the next graphic T you'll find me in is going to read "sorry boys, I only date Bears."

Okay fine, we watched Bear City too.

edit: that picture is way bigger than I thought it would be.