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[stop being crazy] I was just thinking, and, I'm really sorry for all the times i didn't call to tell you happy birthday sometimes it's on purpose because i think it doesn't matter sometimes it's because i actually forgot i do that every once in a while i forget i'm a machine but i am human i need space and alone time and i get sad / when i get really angry i don't talk about it right away i'll probably wait five days and then maybe you'll ask me what's wrong and even then maybe i'll tell you but no promises i will study my feelings over and over again until i think i know exactly what they are by that time it's always too late but some how i think that everything happens as it should when it should it is not predetermined but it is not a mistake those don't exist simply unexpected changes.